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2008-12-18T11:18:00.003+08:00

2008-12-15T12:03:00.002+08:00

Throw-Face Part 2;
Just because Hubs wanna punish Cyndi, got backfired and caught me up. Kuang kuang kuang again.

Back-track …

Sat - 13.12.2008

Hubs finaLLy done with his paper Last Saturday, suppering and Harry Potter-ed a Little before heading back to Hubs pLace. Bought the stuff and bus-ed to Leonard's pLace; cause when you drink, you can't drive! And when Hubs asked if I'm ready, I know this idiot wanna punish me again! So I acquaint myseLf to refrain any cause I tot Hubs gonna be the one who gets drunk but stiLL grrr.

Guess-ed and started, yours truLy got too damn wasted that night. Grr, bLame that unlucky pick I've got and that damn 007 game which does damage to my brain ceLLs. The coupLe went off scot-free! And whiLe they are happiLy watching TV, I got stuck with the basin with hubs constantly teLLing me to vomit it out, vomit it out. I don't need hubs to teLL me how I stayed there for almost an hour, neither do I need him to teLL me how I actuaLLy brushed his hands off while he tries to wipe that dirt off my mouth. Haa, then again I did remember Leonard's was down when I returned back to the living room.

Left @ 5 odds and thank God his pLace was near to Hubs. Let's pray hard enough, Hubs' parent will do me weLL by not reviewing on the CCTV again!!

Sun - 14.12.2008

Woke up at 11 odds onLy to find the pig hubs of mine sLept 3/4 of the bed; damn, shouldn’t have Let him come up the bed. GRRR. Out for brunch and sLept thru another haLf of the afternoon before hubs went for his usual game.

Dinnering, superman-ed, infernal affairs-ed and kellypan-ed before KO.

Mon - 15.12.2008

BACK TO WORK.

Not bLogging here anymore, cause there's always comments I din wanna hear. I don't know what's damn issue they have on me, I've even people asking me to remove my post. Like damn freak, asking ME to remove things that I'VE wrote on MY OWN bLog. Funny. I mean, if you don't wanna read, just don't read. The cross on the upper right's aLways waiting for you to cLick. I never shot a gun on you asking you to read. You did it wiLLing isnt it? Or rather get her not to read Lahs. Whats the probLem man. I happy I write, not happy I aLso write, got things I write, nothing I aLso Like to write. I've got nothing to hide, for I did no wrong or whatsoever. Open it like a book and peopLe just Like to shut me off. Hate these sort, damn spoiLer and made Laoniang damn angry so I don't bother to write the days earLier.

Hate it.
When peopLe starts putting words in my mouth, and I got bLame for aLL the stuff I've never said. Hypocrites whom Look straight at me smiLing and saying things behind my back. WAH. BTH.

StiLL no pics cause I've decided to move on to another space.

So it's goodbye peopLe.

P/S: Let's aLL not get drunk at DbL O this Fri. And time for Xmas shopping peopLe!

Yours;
有了兄弟绝对无敌!

2008-12-09T12:52:00.001+08:00

David Archuleta - To Be With You

I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you

So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you

Just to be with you, yeah

You
Ooooooh

Wanna be your officiaL girL.

2008-12-09T08:10:00.002+08:00

I love love love Xmas. I love walking down the lighted streets with you, i love the warmth you gonna give when I encountered with the cold. And how i love reminding you how you broke my xmas that year. I seriously hope this xmas, hubs isnt going to make me throw that log caks like i did that year. He better not, he better not.

8 mths and I still wake up having the same feeling for you and the very same urge to let you know how much i love you as the morning light breaks.

Mer talked me into something which got me really thinking, i know i had to do something about it cause you really do deserve so much better. You're God's gift that wander with me at times when I'm down, made me understand how good it feels to have someone to share the joy within and the urge to tell you everything that has happened. It's a good feeling having you, falling in love with you and to able to grow old with you. And for so much more thanks to say, I'll use a lifetime to let you know how appreciative I'm of you.

Good luck hubs and you know thru storms and hurdles, I'm always here. 3 papers to go!

Yours;
B1

2008-12-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

Mummy and daddy gonna reach here! Hubba' here soon I hope! I'm here at home, watching don't forget the lyrics. Damn no life cause even merby heads out with someone. No life.

2008-12-04T10:19:00.002+08:00

I tried to on the comp each time i were to, I just go straight to bed instead. So still no pictures. Life is really tough man!!

Anw, still to say happy 8th month together hubs and love youuuuuuuu to plant the surprise under my blanket. Love you again for remembering each and every month, love you for the little little things you've done just for me. Love you again again and again, again and again at each wakening sight.

Wah, bth. Love until I must declare it out here. No choice man! Cause I need to let some love deprive individuals understand it, cause no matter what I do, they sure to have something to say. When i love, you start yakking and when i don't, you start to fret. Just because I'm happily attached doesn't much give you the right to sprout all these.

Mad.

I think my bf's the best in the world man! Even if my bf is to cheat on me, i wont cling onto him on the fact knowing he doesnt love me anymore.

=)

Oh.. And mum and dad be back tonight!

2008-12-02T13:11:00.003+08:00

Skipped Double O on fri and hit the Arena with hubba and his classmates. Free cause hubba's mate managed to pull strings and to even got us to the VIP seats! Thank God man!, cause laoniang got drunk that very night. Showdown with hubba was brought forward and i cant understand why did i accept to agree on the drinking session. Damn embarrassed cause that's my first meeting with his classmates. =(

Reached at 11 odds when hubs down me one after another, and got wasted at just 1am. Lucky i wasnt the first and lucky hubba's alrdy mine so there's no worry as to how i were to score infront of him with my drunkard self! (Internal joke!) HAHA!! Left when the party just started cause before they alrdy got high, my hearing sense fell zero. Even as hubs tried to make me stay awake, i continue stonning at my seat fighting off the urge. I couldn't remember what was communicate across but there's a lot, and the last sentence I heard from hubs' friend was "Bryant says he's taking you home". I think I did answer but instead ...

I vomitted. Right at the floor, right outside the entrance of Arena where there's just so many others stationed at CQ waiting to watch a scene like this and how unfortunately i have to be the one to be laughed at this time. And oh, not to forget vomitting at the cab. And and how hubs must to remind me his hands, his pants blah blah blah.

I dont know but I'm kinda proud to have get out from the cab without hubs helping me (thou again he had to remind how i almost tripped), how I managed to walk to the gate and to the door ( bearing in mind how I waited patiently for hubs to key in) and proudly walked up three full folds of stairs! And to the bed! With hubs saying something, I fell asleep almost immediately.

Now I just hope hubs' parent just wouldn't replay the CCTV to see how I tried to walk that night. >.<

Woke up and almost to have that hangover, I still went on with that shopping date with Merby. So afterall, I'm still a not bad sum.

Three million loves to hubba for staying close, for saying never mind never mind to all the vomits, for carrying me to the cab, for letting me to have the whole bed to myself till late odds when I wake up and pull you up (I'm a good gf), for feeding me with gossips that night, for buying breaky, for just too many things that night. Woo, but still unwilling to let ya be the winner that night!

Time to study, will be back on pictures then!~

2008-11-28T12:26:00.002+08:00

I've been surfing the line for almost two hours with no intention of strucking back to what I've left at work. No photos cause Lao niang's camera is having its holiday at Taiwan. Sucks cause this is the one time I felt its good to be a camera. Miss mum so much, more dearly to the loot she's bringing me! But all in all she had to disappoint me last night calling and said theres nothing there to buy! I mean how can, its taiwan she's going man! I'm going to mms her with that one thing u need! Hope xmd still has that~ and how i hope mum's not lying when she said she'll bring me shopping after she's back!

TGIF! And they say its dbl o tonight! Just as i was reminded how much I gotta spend, I told hubba I could easy get off by asking somebody else there to pay instead! Since hubba's not joining me, he said I could have his wallet and reminded me not to get any drinks from others, all except him. Heeeeee, why hubs so cute? But I hope hubba will join us early tonight or I'll be hopping over to CQ to find him instead! But who knows we might just bum ourselves home tonight cause we are all so tired after having to come back at 1 odds from Malaysia since hubba and friends are low on petrol! I think i'll better wait home for hubba than to have join them. But afterall, i still love spend every min with hubba, so okays lah, scarifice abit!

And this sat, hubba and I gg to challenge on who's a better drinker! Wah, hope I won't get knock out first! Plus points to getting drunk, i can have the whole bed to myself!

Be back again!

2008-11-26T08:22:00.002+08:00

I told ya so!!!

I should have agree at once when mummy offered the Taiwan trip. Now I miss Taiwan so much, especially so when mum jet off this morning to that beautiful land. On the very fact that I really miss Taiwan, or the very fact that I need a break, and the very very fact that I need shopping!!

So did I remember telling mum to get that pair of shoes I've been eyeing on? Or that bag I very much wanted? Or that top that I would have die for?! Omg omg, dammit. I just remember reminding her to get me truck loads of food... I had better give her a call soon.

Lucky there's someone to call hubs, cause it made washing clothes, ironing them and the cooking of meals much easier. I din force him, he did mention how he would be my mum plus bf for the next 9 days.

Lecture started! Cant believe i should have been on the plane once again.

2008-11-21T16:17:00.002+08:00

sometimes I just felt that I'm just going too overboard, even the surfboard also cannot fight with my stubborness lah! But hubby's also telling me in great patience how things should be done and why.. * thou sometimes he don't, like last night how I want him to explain the COE stuffy, he jitao made me dirt pissed!* So I kicked him off the bed and my ah bui fell from the bed sial! Then I realized BIG TROUBLE! Cause hubby gave me the big blacky face (thou his face always very black lah!) n walked to his comp. But still gave me his act cute smile after 10 seconds... >.<

I know im not a good bb.. Cause many of friends has mentioned how I've been taking him for granted. But i just cant stand how hubba made me sometimes, even when im damn mad, this ah bui still without fail trying very hard to poke me and giving me those silly looks, what i mean is trying hard to get me even more angry. Instead of getting simmered down, i went on biting him to ease my bu shuang ness... >.<

I know I'm uberly unreasonable brat, cause even hubba has been with me, I still went on mentioning how he hasn't dote me enuff, n he has to continue pacifying me on how much he really does and to see how I've been ignorant about it. And needless to mention how his friends has been telling me its been too long since hubba went on to meet them ever since we got together, making me guilty all over. But now I really never ask hubba not to meet them wor.. Sometimes is hubby really dont want to go one, I'll then have the blame to it again.

Anw, i think im a good gf already,
i made hubba sneeze by pinching his nose, full string of sneezing starts melodying
i kick hubba
i bite him until his shoulder gets swollen and red ( thats because he made me damn angry last night)
i made him piggyback me up the stairs to his room ( but now no more ler, cause his parents got the cctv installed. Later she said i play punk!)
i made him piggyback me outside instead, last night at marina barrage. Just coz i saw the other guy carry his gf. I never force okays, cayse hubby wanna show him he can carry me also.
hubbu pick me up at every end of lesson or work, thou i like tge erp thingy but hubba hates it..
i made hubba cook mushroom soup for me! Yummy!!

Many more to go but i needa run, work's done! I needa get home first cause hubba's at work, need to meet his fren fir something before meeting me up for dinner!
Just rem im a good gf can ler!

Tml is beach road day! And Xmas is dinnering with hubba's family to celebrate his dad's bday! Ask hubby wat to buy, he said his dad wanna change car! I think next year i want to change hubby ah!

*cannot bully hubby cause he just got whacked by one small girl whom asked him to have some manners! Omg... Must be not knowing she's speaking to one handsome boy boy hor..

Ciao~~

Try to be your better girl next time~

2008-11-21T09:30:00.003+08:00

I love Marina South Pier!
I love Marina Barrage!

Love until I wanna stay there man!

Keep bleeding.

2008-11-20T12:55:00.004+08:00

Because getting back is impossible but that thought still swirl around. Kept by the past and to be doubtful of the current doings. So now, why am I still here.

I told ya, sucks to be caught in that middle.

It was once beaconing, once. Now I start to wonder, why. Sometimes love just aint enuff. And that sometimes ignorance is really a bliss, I wish I never know.

2008-11-19T16:57:00.007+08:00

Sunday; one of Hubba's malay pal's engagement

Few days back; Old airport road for dinnering .. when we waited an hour just for the satay.

>.<

& on the way back .. hubba has gotten a new steering wheel!

Closerlook!;

One of the nights; Long-time-no-eat Aston!!

omg. and how their standard drop so much.

Dinnering for 7th month @ ECP; Sushitei

for the sweet tooth;

*chuuuuuuuuuuuu

Back home;

Me to Hubs.

& from hubs!

New EZ Link!!

^.^v

& Me back to work ...

omg.sucks.

till then people ...

2008-11-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

LAST PICTURE TO GO; HUBBA'S WAITING HUBBA'S WAITING!!

MAY THE WHACKIEST FACE WINS!

p/s: hubba's sucha blackie. omg.

2008-11-02T19:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY POST-HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!

Halloween was once supposed to be party, partying and more parties! This time round, we snugged ourself in the theatre and get ourselves horrified! And I'm glad this time round, watching horror films are well protected. 5 hours of movies almost killed us. REC was scary, Coffin was more scarierr and SAW 5 was HAHAHA. Non-stop of popcorn-ing and non-stop of filling drinks up! Hee.

Left @ 1 odds and sent the peeps back ... managed to KO at 3 odds, only to have Hubba waiting for me to bathe cause the timid me had scary illusions sights (BOOHOO).

BTW, Winnie ... your house really scary lahs. Freaked me and feng you know you know. Alamak ... plus your combo lift rides that goes eek eek eek.

omg.

Hubba had his new haircut and he become so emotional after that. Hubba, take this chance of your stylist's maternity and have her changed! HAAA.

Darl had this airflown from Hong Kong to here! LOVE MANY MANY! MUACKIE MUACKIE!!

And my best effort - Part 1; lying on Hubba's table alrdy!

Love you love you; happy 7th month-niversay, tml. Sushi-Tei @ ECP tml!!

I needa bathe within 15 mins, cause Hubba's making his way here. LALALALA.

P/s: Each time at the awakening moment, I find myself falling in love with you once again.
P/Ss: VV went Lee Hom's concert with a camera .. how powerful can she go? And she had a grandma seat! KEKE!!

Giving up, why should I
I've come too far to forget
We're beautiful, we just got lost
Somewhere along the way
So much was missing when you went away

Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn′t seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here

Standing here face to face
A finger on your lips
Don't say a word don't make a sound
Silence surrounds us now
Even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let' start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don′t need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn′t seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

I've never been the one to open up
But you've always been the voive within
The only warmth from my cold heart
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

2008-10-31T13:11:00.003+08:00

PICTUREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Few days back; Hubba bought me what he claimed, BEST curry (#1 You know ...): Muthu Curry! Where I drowned the whole Lime juice down and Hubba still happily eating without a single sip. Everything's not hot to him. Mad creature.

Complimentary from Mummy!Love Love cereal prawn, Love Love Curry fish, Love Love Crab!! Even love when Hubba's done with the peeling, I eat eat eat! LOL! Note: Hubba said he very strong, very cute.

@ Library ... And they said this is for sleeping when you know there's an upcoming test in an hour's time. Dumbo Hubba still thought someone stratched me. HAHAHA.

Sometime ago, @ Orchard Parade Hotel; Black Angus. Hubba's polymates bday celebration.

Head back home before cabbing down to BQ for Yoshida's bday; that night when Hubba's got drunk and KO before me and and and, the continuous nagging on how the cabbie cheated on our money. Freaking crazy, cause that night, the bill came up to 700 odds. How scary do they drink ...

Few days back; ECP with hubba. And how we always attract stares on the amount of food we ordered. Left for Mount Faber to feed the mosquitoes back. omg omg omg.

& How hubba kept complaining I've been uploading ugly pics of his! He said he doesnt look like that .. So being his nice GF, I decided to load this up. Hubba's not ugly okays, Hubba's Yoga Lin you know.

& Hubba tries to get HK and fail. KAKA.

My Queen's birthday man!

That night, Dinnering with Hubba's family and the other two XHH.

It's coming; it's coming!!

I'm going to slack now and wait for Hubba to finish his work so we can all head out for his haircut before we get ourself to meet Merby and Winnie for the movie marathon @ PS. Please please dont ever lemme bite my hubba's arm off. No goosebumps! No nightmares! Coffin to go! Saw to go! oRec to go! BANG BANG BANG. KUANG KUANG KUANG.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!

P/S: Fabricating is all that you do. If this is what it does to make you happy, go ahead and illusion-ise yourself. I'm not a bit bothered by it.

2008-10-29T14:25:00.002+08:00

Break and broken. Can't be bothered.. Take a bow, take a break. For a moment, for a moment please.

2008-10-24T12:20:00.004+08:00

Thnku4lettinmebmahself

Find it in your heart to reach me
Promise not to leave me behind
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear
Don't wanna fall asleep
Cuz I don't know if I can dream about you
And I dont want to cause a scene
Cuz i'm dying without your love
Baby, to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
Cuz i'd rather just be alone
If I know that I cant have you

Over to Hubba's place for lunch and to study econs. omg omg omg. When will shopping then come. SHUCKS.

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

2008-10-23T13:10:00.005+08:00

The very burning sophiscated issue now ..

To Taiwan or not.

With all expenses paid, I could simply whipped up everything at one go and to stuff the nicest food in me. Very lucrative indeed!

Opportunity cost .. Hubba.

No doubt I love love my mummy for the sponsorship man! To even with the promise of getting me OMNIA. I love her big time man! But going on with her plans means I wont get to see Hubba for a while.

I know Im going to miss Hubba like mad............................ Utility gain not going with hubba is (100000000000000000000000000).

Very tough decision.

Camera's still with Hubba; so bear with these.
Super nice song; found it when Hubba and I were @ BQ. Hubba's out doing his project and im uberly slack at home. Tonight there's good food!

Now I needa go take shower and to meet my dearest mum who's gonna get me a new phone for my room and to have a very very nice lunch.

See you guys soon!~
P/S: Horrormarathon next fri!~

无助的角落里
抱我自己的再紧一些
也不肯妥协

没发现的堕落
愿意永远躲在你的身后
为爱到最后

就算空气变的稀薄
受尽了苦也不退缩
对我来说心跳也没用

是因为你让我呼吸
是因为你我才清醒
是因为你我才能做回我自己
就让这场爱情变的惊天动地

无助的角落里
抱我自己的再紧一些
也不肯妥协

没发现的堕落
愿意永远躲在你的身后
为爱到最后

就算空气变的稀薄
受尽了苦也不退缩
对我来说心跳也没用

是因为你让我呼吸
是因为你我才清醒
是因为你我才能做回我自己
就让这场爱情变的惊天动地

I love you; and there's no place I rather be than here in your arms.

2008-10-20T12:06:00.004+08:00

Wish i could be everything you wanted ...

Truth, a hardcore fact and they always hurt and sometimes i rather myself not asking. Im a born pretender, have that no-one-knows-im-crying smile and that act-as-nothing personality; i rather to pour out in discreet to bud and let him wake me up, talk me sense ad hopefully lemme understand what actually happened or rather, what to do.

Im so sick to be that perfect girl cause its never being enough, and how tormentating to understand how i was never good enough for you. How afraid things might get back to before and how likely things happening all over again.

There's always lies in your truth. There's always something you wanna hide when you speak. There's always some bits left in that corner of your heart thats left untouchable.

i know i might cry, maybe tonight. But i know its gonna be okaya. I just need to talk, i need to talk to someone else.

2008-10-19T17:49:00.003+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS!
Your princess here has her busy week ongoing .. and I just got back from Hubba's place while he heads off to his usual game. I needa get bathe before hubba came picking up me later, back to his place again for dinner-ing.

Last night we had such packed schedule and we named it Hubba's day (We din place hop to meet each other friends but to meet hubba's friend only).

Sat morning was suppose to dim sum-ing with hubba but I overslept so Hubba came over, lunch and back to hubba's place. Head back home while Hubba had his game while I get myself done before heading off to his place for his preparation again.

Head off to Orchard Parade Hotel for his dinnering @ Black Angus with his polymates. Uberly long long time since Hubba meet up with his gang. While the place was famous for its steak, we thought otherwise; perhaps done in a wrong way.

Head back home cause you cant drive when you drink! Off to BQ cause it's his pal's bday. While Kenny and Yoshida was telling me stuffs and how Hubba kept reminding me not to get angry and how he was sooooo scare I was being angry; the look from his face; I know all three guys are drunk.

Left at 4 odds to Hubba's place and even letting the cab driver cheat on our bucks. Hubba was niam-ing ... Kept saying how it was and thats when I really don't believe Hubba did not get drunk, I swear he was! And this super egoistic man kept insisting how he was not drunk but being sucha nice and patience girlfriend, I took over the job of looking after hubba .. how he vomitted and how he was supposed to TATA me to bed; he just slept in his way. I only managed to KO at 8 plus 9. Brilliant! Cause I got up at 11 odds when Hubba slept to his fullest.

Went out, ate lunch and head back to sleep again. As tired as we are, Hubba still went to his usual game and me here.

Pictures later cause my camy is @ Hubba's place.

I needa bathe cause Hubba's finishing on his game soon. For now, make do with this. Somewhile ago, while Winnie joined us for some game which KO us the very night as well. And and Hubba with ENEN trying very hard to get the DS on hand. And and and ... ENEN made this flower for me.

HIAKS. Till then ........

P/S: I have work tomorrow and I had a test on wednesday.
P/SS: I really don need friends whom go round telling what supposed to be a secret and those whom doesnt reply on my msg-es. I don see why .. and they told me I should really ignore and best, delete them off. Anw, I don need them. I have enough friends to go along. Most of all, I have my best male friends; Hubba and Merby (I mentioned you alrights)

2008-10-13T16:39:00.001+08:00

for they said; ignorance is a bliss.

2008-10-11T01:51:00.004+08:00

Hubs came over this afternoon before we head off to meet the guys at town. Veryyyyyyy sweet hubs iron my clothes. LOVE LOVE LOVE; Coz Hubs has never ever iron for anyone before

lalalalala -

Head off to Hubs place first; waiting for this vainpot to choose his clothes, style his hair blah blah and he said never ever to buy his any perfume ....

lol!

And the vainpot starts his daily routine again .........

Super act!

Met up with the pals for dinner-ing @ Big O Cafe

Home sweet Home with my again very sweet hubs, sending all of them back.

Im going bed cause my whinning bf is on the line and moreover, we are having badminton tml. Im sure to sleep well tonight, cause tml I'll be whacking them down! Wahahahahha-

I love you; Because you'll always have that one way to make me feel happy.

2008-10-10T11:07:00.002+08:00

I skipped soci on wed and hubs came over, cooked and feed the hungry me;

I love I love I love love love~!

And that very night, Hubs has finally got his friendly match going. Watched as Hubs whacked the others and was called up for this:

Bought soci there; but uberly no mood to study. So continue to watch the game going. Left at 11pm and head off to dinnering. Back to Hubs place, sleep till 3am and back home, continue sleeping again. omggg. so tired.

Yesterday, watched Big Stan. Still, I cant understand why Hubs like this sort of movie genre. Like, I almost fall asleep .. but still it was me whom bought the tixs.

Head off to Marina South Pier; superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr nice place. Quality time and talks with Hubs for 3 full hours. I like! But not to much liking for hubs, when there's a summon lying on his car.

What a day to end with hur.

Hubs grab my cell and starts to snap himself, which later he explain how I would be able to see his handsome face whenever he calls. As if I hadnt seen him enuff for the day, I need to see him even on my cellphone. The problem is, why would I wanna see one fat ah bui in the first place.

>.<

Because you live

and how because we love

2008-10-09T12:57:00.000+08:00

but I'll be holding onto you forever

2008-10-08T12:10:00.025+08:00

Hello My Dear Earthlings;

Before I hit off this zone again, here's the update everyone's been chasing me after; and before before I start on the rant; here's the picture of the day.

Before before before that; lemme introduce Hubs' very very very cmi aircon, it brings sauna effect and sweat droplets. Luckily; Hub's parents are soooooooo nice, they changed it. Now we're having winter sonata every night.

Note to remember; very nice dessert @ bugis.

Hubs' last day @ f1 event; video call-ed me just to show me the place where he is. And taekwondo fighter! Met Hubs and to reward him with the nicest food on earth! And I have no faintest idea why would he wanna give me sucha face. Train-ed back to Hubs' place since he's uberly tired and was sooooo sun bleached.

Dinnering with bro and mum; bday treats @ some hk cafe, novena.

and for a matter of fact, I'm 22 now. Wind back; I can't believe I had to attend classes on the eve to my BIG day, still after much grumblings to Hubs; I still park my soul-less self to school. Macro was okays, except for the endless jotting down of notes. Left school at 1830, self aclaimed to have know Hubs inside out, I head back home cause I know surprises are on its way at 12mn. While I was still comtemplating on whether or not to hit Dbl O that night, I gave it another thought; since places like such no long pleases me (Sorry guys). I tried calling Mum, since earlier; she wanted me to buy myself dinner; but then she insisted me to head back home for dinner, quick. Loopholes all the way from the previous nights. Hubs gave it all!

Scenario #1 Typically;

Me: My friend asked me go club lehs.

Hubs: Oh .. Going with?

Me: Don't tell you ………

Hubs: Don't tell me then don't go.

Me: -.- …*answered usual khaki*

Hubs: Oh .. Okays. - Before setting three millions rules over again -

*In the end also never go …*

Surprisely;

Me: Mer they all asked me go Dbl O on Tue lehs. Don't know wanna go nots.

Hubs:Don't go lahs .. You not tired after your class mehs.

*Kuang Kuang Kuang*

Scenario #2

Typically;

Me: Hubby .. U want dinner?

Hubs: OKAYS! I want * PI LI PA LA PI LA PA LA*

Surprisely;

Me: Hubby .. Lessons over! I go buy dinner for you? (Cause Hubs' parents' out meeting client, hubby left with no food!)

Hubs: Think nvm, mummy got cook blah blah blah …

*SHOCKED*

So … I head home instead. And found this~! Hubby had Leonard carrying all these things behind him while He chiongs his way down, Cahoots with mummy and had them sitting on my bed. Called Hubs after, and He said he was going back. (LoopHole #3: Hubby will never ever leave my sight until wee hours, note then was only 7pm.)

So we decide to converse thru the net and since I was alrdy engaged in Hubs's plan, I decided to hoax him by saying I'm heading out to Dbl.O. *Grin* And out of the sudden, very very sudden, Hubs' comp went down on him. He decided to play a lil trick on me as well by acting up that kan cheong-ness on me, since he had to submit his assignment by 12mn; He went offline, online, offline and online. So Hubs has to text me to say his msn's down, along with his IE. Bet Hubs must have think I'm sucha dumb bee cause previously, his comp was really down. Who knows he has such an erudite wifey.

Hubs: *Whinning on how he has to submit his assignment and his team mates were all out, and he's the only left to upload this assignment*

Me: *Suggesting Hubs that he can ask his classmates to help with the uploading*

Hubs: Later they copy our work .. *Not a very good suggestion*

Me: Like hello? Your deadline for submission's at 12mn, sent to them at 11.45pm, where got time to copy.

Seriously mad. So we went on arguing, Hubs insisted in coming.

Skipping the wait; Hubs came over at slightly before 12mn (I'd better save the embarrassing part on Hubs trying to light the candle up). And Hubs hide this in the storeroom!!! I was still that blurrish trying to hide Hubs inside the storeroom. Come to think of it, no wonder he was in play with me to the mirror.It has been a long night and Hubs reminded me to sleep early, coz the day next we will be heading off to Sentosa. My endless whinning on sun bathing still remains unanswered cause Hubs' main itinerary was to the LUGE. Funnnnnnnn. Pictures explains all.

No one in the right mind will cut Hello Kitty this way; only Hubs does.

I presumed only he can come up with this; I have to do part of the bday card.

Very unconvincing footnote';

Look at that face; Drained - and we trained back home, I know it's the most dumbest and to my deepest regret Hubs did not ride there. Bathed, slept and got waken up when Hub's mum came talking to him …………… bleah.

After all the celebration, thurs came shortly and I headed back to the all so familiar workplace. Hubs came over to pick me up while we head off to Marina for "Connected". Super nice show coz Louis Khoo's soooooooo cute. Head off to my place n Hubs mentioned how he needs to get home first to finish up his assignment (Reference Loophole #3: Hubs never ever leaves my sight, not until wee hours, bearing in mind it was only 1opm then). Also, Hubs without fail, will always call me once he reach home. Since these, I know I have an upcoming surprise, again! 12mn, Hubs here again! (For your information, It's thee day of the month again!)As rush as it is between two big occassions; Hubs done them all within a stipulated time. All by himself, half complaining how my room has been lacking of his photos. And my half done gifts … (=

Hubs and I continue reminiscing how the past has gotten us up for an hour, before we head out to heal our hungry stomach.

And I din know I have a sister all along and and and, I pricked myself while doing thatt; thou I have yet to finish it, since Hubs hasnt been rushing me.

I have work on friday and being a very nice Hubs he picked me up and head off to ECP for night cycling. Hubs went off to meet his pals coz I have sch the next day. Was about to sleep at 3am when Hubs wanna sing for me there; LOL! Bth. So the phone was passed around while I chit chatting with Kenny when Hubs was singing (Totally never listen to Hubs' singing at all); So in conclusion I really don't have to attend Soci classes at all. KO after hubs hang up the call when he reached home and KO as well.

Sat - Hubs was sweet enuff to send me to school depsite having to sleep at wee hours like 4am; Hubs has his game while I was napping. He came over for some furniture moving action cause the following day is the day again; House Warming finally.

Sun - I couldnt wake up on time and Hubs had to call me to do so. Hubs went to have his game while I continue napping (Again, Hiaks); woke up late and then dinnering at hubs place. KO coz I have classes on Monday afternoon.

Hubs been too spoiling me these few days; fetching me to and fro to sch when I had night classes. Not only that, but to feed me with late night suppers which almost puke out from me. And this morning, I was lateeeee for classes! Blame it on Hubs, cause we left for home at 3 and I was only left with 3 hours to sleep! Was comtemplating to sneak in during the break or not, called Hubs for final decision. Left sch after collecting the tuts and lecture notes, skip soci as well. >.<>

Now ......... I needa go prepare cause Hubs' having his friendly match this evening and being a super nice gf, I should be there to support him as well. And to have a super uberly full supper later on. I have no lessons tml ................. like finally!

Update with pics again; Till then .............. thanks for all these presents.

Love;

Bumble Head

2008-10-04T02:20:00.004+08:00

The Princess had her fair share of bday celebration; along with my 6th month-niversary. Poor hubs with tonnes of preparation to make.

Make do with these pictures first, let the prelude starts sinking before I po the rest up. When I got myself enough rest and when I have all the time in the world. I have sch tomorrow, it's 2.34am; I needa sleep. Hubs still out with his friends for that drink, and since Hubs has not been meeting his friends for far too long (few months is quite a long time), I decided to give the green light for him to this meet up, and promise not to whine on anything.

Till the pictures are done ...

Love; Your Goddess

He may have said it lesser than the others; But once He started, it bears sucha big impact.

Sentosa on thee princess big day~!

Make it thru the rain;

Pro shot - Princess S

Hold it close, Hold it tight; Never never let go.

My Pearl Harbour; Somewhere I call Home, where it is.

2008-09-27T16:20:00.004+08:00

Live!

Last night, Hubs pal's (CheeFan) bday. So we all head down to bugis and had seoul garden for dinner and Alps Cafe again! & Since Hubs had to work the next day, we went off early. No one's drunk that very night.
(=

Something to look forward part II

Im late!

Going off to meet Hubbs whom has been under the sun since 1opm and to reward him with the nicest food on earth. CIAO!

Your goddness;-

2008-09-26T14:55:00.001+08:00

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Hellogoodbye - Here In Your Arms

I like where we are,
When we drive, in your car
I like where we are.... Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Well you are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me.
I like where you sleep... here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Well you are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Our lips, can touch
Our lips, can touch...here

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you miss you
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms.
Here in your arms.

Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

2008-09-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

Malaysia-ing with Hubby and friend last night

All boys love Mandy Lane earlier on; super sucky show with a lousy ending.

sucky attitude with Hubs just now and despite the endless strong bites, the turning-my-back on him, the multiple pinches which leaves blue black again .. i almost made my never-angry-before Hubs turns reaaaaal mad. But still, peace.

Follow by, dinner-ing at ECP and spending quality time by the beach. Thennnn, back to Hubs' place and now ... KO. Cause Hubs has his F1 event early tml.

Love all~

P/S: I lovee lovee shophouses.

2008-09-23T11:18:00.009+08:00

SINGAPORE FLYER!

MY BLACK BOAR SNATCHED ENEN AWAY!

Hubby .. u hug who ahh?

>.<

SOCI TEST FINALLY OVER!!!

STUDY GUIDE'S FINALLY HERE!; HUBS SAID TIME TO STUDY!

WHO SAYS YOU CAN'T MAGGIE MEE-D IN A FRYING PAN?

>.<

HK MASHMELLOWS FROM HUBS!

LAST WED; HUBS BOUGHT A FULLY HEARTY BREAKFAST BEFORE I HEAD OFF SCH;

GOTTEN HIMSELF LATE INSTEAD.

LOVE MANY MANY;

A LITTLE SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO;

P/S: IM GOING TO GET OMNIA TODAY!

2008-09-19T14:12:00.005+08:00

2008-09-19T14:12:00.003+08:00

By no mistake, this phone should be mine in no time!
Thou I was still on a lil comtemplating mood that I should get iPhone since I've been waiting for sucha long time. The fever should be soon over and I should face reality that Omnia is indeed better. HAAA. So get me a good price for my almost-to-spoil phone and iTouch.

Better yet, Hubs getting the same phone with me! So with us bidding goodbye to N8o and welcome with both arms on this!

BTW, Hubs and I are heading to Singapore Flyer tonight with mum and the other two lil imps. All in sponsorship by my dearestttttt brother! I know, photos photos!

Till then ... Love you all~

2008-09-16T01:10:00.003+08:00

2008-09-15T10:46:00.011+08:00

Chinese Garden Episode:

Because I remember the last time I went, It was 2oo4.
It could be those uninteresting themes or rather maybe I hadnt find anyone whom would actually go to places like this with me; I skipped this for almost 3 years. Coincidentally, this year would be the theme of favourite, and Im along with the same company. Except this time round, someone pre-bought these stuff and to mention how exciting it would be to see the F8 race (lol!). Hmm, I thought I was the only one whom's looking far forward to this; now now.

Few days back .... I BITE I BITE!

Before meeting Frenzie; Hubs passed me one of his watch. I thought I should wore it with caution, but Hubs thought otherwise. So I went on banging it with stuffs, afterall, it's just a 3.50-dollar watch.

>.<

And yest; Hubs went all the way down to his pal's place to get soci notes.

Because I've been whinning how soci lessons should never be instilled

Because I've been complaining how stupid soci lesson is

Because I've been contemplating whether or not to go soci lession each time

Because I've a test this wednesday and I have not even touch it

Because Hubby super loves me!

But because of this, I bit Hubs because He was late in fetching me.

And if he were to show it earlier to me, or to tell me what he's collecting, I wouldn't have to bite him and then to feel guilty all over.

>.<

Back to Hub's place, accompanied Hubs for badminton but this time round, with Hub's sec sch friends, head back for curry (YUM YUM!) In sponsorship by Hub's sis. And then we went out for a stroll, with thousands of pairs of eyes looking at us, idiots whom carries lantern walking round the houses.

NOW; It's 12.28pm. Hubs out for his project-ing and before I head off to Hub's place for dinner, I seriously have to kick start my soci or Im going to flunk so badly in my first ever test.

Till then, TaTa.

Because you're here, there's no where I wouldnt go
As long as you're here.

2008-09-12T15:39:00.001+08:00

2008-09-11T02:33:00.001+08:00

Today … I’m L-O-S-T~!
After so long, this is the first time Hubby and I did not meet; even for a second. For the past 5 months odd, no matter how late Hubby has to work or even previously when I had to work late, we would meet up even for a few hours.
But today, I hadn’t seen Hubby for one sec. Torment-ting. No, we didn’t quarrel. In fact we never ever quarrel before, even if we did, it was me being uberly unreasonable, taking things for granted, satisfied not enuff, always trying to break Hubby’s limit (Coz Hubby has never ever angereeeee me before) – Like not allowing Hubby to sleep thou he had to wakey up early in the morning, unreasonable supper craving, blah blah~ Overall, it’s always me me me trying to play angree scene with myself.

BTW, it’s been awhile since I start my nonsense; bet Hubby’s on glad mood on these days, coz volcano never erupt. So if you haven realize it, I start playing my angereeeeee self out of the blue, always.

But why why leh .. Why Hubby and I hadn’t meet for the day. By right (or left) at this time, Hubby would normally sit on the sofa with me cuddling up to him; watching tv. At times, popping “kiss kiss” request and the constant kissy on my head. Or I would be at his bed watching tv while his gang of nieces would start marching in; playing with my rings, my hair and non-stop jie jie-ing.

But tonight was different, I was uberly LOST ahhhhh. And today’s the day where I had received more sms-es from Hubby than before (Coz normally, when I were to wake up, hubby’s here or vice versa and the SMS-incoming stopped).

We did not quarrel neither did I strand my Hubby out at my door nor did Hubby lock me out from the gate.
But it’s all because Hubby’s out in the jungle (reservist if you wanna know). Thou Hubby called several times, but I cant help but to missy him soooo dirt much. Poor Hubby, not able to sleep tonight. Let’s all pray Hubby’s team able to set all the signals up smoothly bahs~!

On another note, I tot it’s time for me to hit for some PT jobs. But then Hubby reminded me if so, we would have lesser time to meet at our pleasure. I tot likewise, there Hubby came up with stupid idea. That’s to for him to support me, 3 bucks per hour sias. And all I have to do is to stay at home whole day, tidy his room, massage him when he’s back blah blah blah. BOOO. Somehow I felt even Mcdonalds offer better remuneration.

Aside to this stupid conversation we were having, Hubby suggested to taking up courses instead since I’ve been having thinking of me wasting my life now. So in that way, I wouldn’t felt wasting time slacking and at the same time, able to meet Hubby anything, anywhere.

Hubby’s right again. I should turn in early so tomorrow will come faster and I get to see him first thing in the morning.
=D

Post script: I wanna be a good wifey for ya; because at each ending night, I would question myself “Have I cherish you thoroughly?” because there’s none other like you, one whom texted me early in the morning trying to wake me up, but failed; and called trying to inform the sleepyhead you’re coming over my place, bringing chui kueh, chao mee fen and mac breaky in just one morning. 3 sets of breakfast on the dining table, awaiting for me to choose betwee.Uberly spoilt with choice. Just because I spilled these weird cravings the night before. How you have reminded me and wished on the day of the month before I could wish you on. How you managed to find tuk tuk kueh to feed my weird craving, like having to find the night market since only they have supply for choco-ly ones. How the sleepy you trying to take a nap at my place last night because this night we are unable to meet, this way prolonging our meeting time thou your parents are leaving on the jet the next day. >.< Not forgetting how you got jealous and the spot checking earlier!
So much of what you have done for me, spending everyday tgt-ing; I hope I am able to tape them down, in that way I’ll be able to recollect those moments as I wish. But come to think of it and knowing you’ll never fail me rights?; I look forward in receiving them more.

Fun fact about Hubby
- He has the funny-est dream on 2 consecutive nights with each getting worst and worst. With me fling-ing with other guys to running away from his friends. So whats on tonight? Lucky Hubby’s the only son, cause who knows tonight he might end up dreaming me running away with his siblings. Oh .. btw, Hubby can’t sleep tonight. >.<

BTW; soci’s test next week … anyone please help me.
OKAYS, it's 2.34am, time for beddy!!

2008-09-09T17:12:00.004+08:00

Needless to say, Im on white.
Hubby's big loser!!!

^.^/

Few days back ... when Hubby's out from his reservist; We finally went for gai gai session after soooo long.
Ps - Bugis - Marina - Novena - Home
@ SpotLight when Bf lost (AGAIN)!
So being a uberly nice GF, I allow him to choose between colours.
^.^/

Last Sat, Sept Babies out!; Steamy and Sheesh-ing then MJ-ing @ my place.
Lost 2.50 . dirt.
>.<

Hubby's coming! CIAO!

P/S: My Hubby's 林宥嘉 okayyyyyyy.
So, 林宥嘉 can you sing for me? And stop drinking your teh bing please., because I love you~!

2008-09-05T10:37:00.004+08:00

何维健 - 今天过去

我们多么用心

说再见都保持冷静

微笑着分手没有人哭泣

我们都没逃避

时间给爱的难题

不论交给谁都无法处理

今天过去我是我你是你

以后就没有权利多给你关心

再舍不得太爱你才忍心放弃

这是对的决定请勇敢飞行

你要的幸福不在我这里

我可以独自把梦延续

还是一样上班来不及

还是一样看夜场电影

我的生活依然规律

仿佛忘记你已离去

还是一样城市太拥挤

还是一样多变的天气

你的生活是否顺心

有没有人走进你生命

相爱到最后我们变成朋友

不见面没联络像路人的朋友

想念让人失落也不能说出口

某个路口曾经与你擦肩而过

不打扰的温柔是我唯一能做

因为你还相信爱情真的觉得感动

我会在这里再守候

默默看着你再心动不寂寞

是否你也和我相恋过

不打扰的温柔是我唯一能做

2008-09-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

最怕你忽然说要放弃

2008-09-03T14:11:00.005+08:00

It's the day of the month again;
HAPPY 5TH MONTH HUBBYwith many many more months to come.
Thats to say, 5th months of patience, giving-ins, thru and forth between both houses, endless surprises and unconditional love.
Thank you hubby.
& like what Mer had been constantly yanking at my ears, to cherish and love you like how you are to me and not treat you such shabbily; I know it's time for me change, thats to stop biting your hidden fats when you already bears bruises all over >.<, to not treating you for granted, try lesser to not disturb you while you're driving or riding, stop googling on that eye candy in the court, stop requesting for piggy-backing at the stairs of your house, to ask enen not calling you monster and to stop teaching your nieces how they should call you jie jie instead, to stop saying EMOTIONAL AH~LOST AH LOST~ at my own discreet. Last but not least, to join in for your family dinner when your mummy asked instead of saying how full am I, in regards to whether Im sick not, or to wanting to vomit not - Like how you have support mummy's cooking thou you're dirt full. SUPPORT MAHS.
Thank you Hubby, thanks for departing your time on me other than work and study. It's nice to hear from you first thing in the morning, the last sound I hear at each ending day and to see your ever-smiling face every day. It's too, nice to stroll out in the rain after dinner; as long as Im with you, just the two of us.

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you.
And how you have reminded me yesterday it's two hours away from today.
Again; Happy 5th Month Dearest.

One of hubby's many many many rounds of badminton game.
& many many many of the times I sat behind watching him.
I, has thus becoming the regular there. Tonight, again.

Lunch with VV after sch last week, with both of us ending up to agree how sucky the food is.

>.<

Bought P.Dada to esplanade.
P.Dada knows how to drive!

2008-09-02T08:30:00.002+08:00

and in a minute's time I'm gonna start on my lesson. I know im going to die of boredom coz vv decided to skip today's lesson. But it's okay, I'm going town to meet hubby before he heads back to his camp. Why hubby has to to back for his reservist this point where I've like 3 million years to spent.

Come of it, its the month of the year again; time to come out to play sept babies.

Before that, please let time ticks, let it timed 11.30am please.

2008-08-29T01:16:00.001+08:00

我心情不好你的态度每天都动摇

2008-08-26T22:07:00.002+08:00

Bf: BB, i picked you up after your show okays. U come down at 1opm.
Me: U say one ahhh. BYEEEE.

Right after, the show ended and BF still at home.
Emotional ahhhhhhh. Fret not, im going to make BF emotional later.

Now im late.

Love all~

2008-08-26T12:19:00.005+08:00

Fridayy;
Marina for fireworks

Bf's super haolian armani and boss watches; my teetus become such worthless piece.

Saturday;
Lunch with bf; shopping @ tangs and they say you don't need any reason to get your BF a gift.
(=

Dinner-ing with BF and Alps Cafe with BF & friends. Funny to witness how people react when they got drunk, and giving no warning when they puke. HAHAHAHA; God please don't allow me any chance to get drunk pleaseeee.

Another reach-home-at-6am-day;
>.<

Slept till 2pm and these imps start their nuisance;

& Mondayy;

<3

Tuesdayy;
I'm so free. Why bf has to work today. I'd better start on my soci now.

I dont want nobody but you

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

2008-08-22T15:31:00.004+08:00

I ..... blogged, with pictures.

After not working for almost a month, and having to practice the routine of sleeping at wee hours and waking up at 12 odds every single day, still meeting Hubby every single day only to wake up asking each other "So how, today go where" and to still continue wasting money like I've still own a wide bucket of gold; I've acheived none. Excepts Hubby has start working. >.<

Something tells me to start working on something rather than to waste my life off this way. But before that, I'd better take a nap first cause hubby's bringing me to fireworks tonight!

Till the next log ...

The-make-me-rich-post;

2008-08-11T17:24:00.004+08:00

Hubby came over last night to study, and we got a lil too bored facing each other at the two ends of the table, so we decided to do stupid stuff like this.

You seen the nuffnang adverts; so yeah, do me a big favour lahs
Alternatively; another make-me-rich method:
Princessher-Thecloset

Also, BF's having his first exam tonight; so let's gather all the luck for him!
<3

Alot Like Love;

2008-08-07T19:15:00.007+08:00

Study has always been a tough matter; you made it alot like love. Alot, like it's never enough. And I love you, & it will never be enough. p/s: Hands down, hubby! So, can you please tell me where da hell do they sell tuh tuh cake nots?

Stop and Stare;

2008-08-07T12:57:00.011+08:00

Hubby's 24th;

Mongolian's Dinner

Ktv-ing;Before Jack jet off to Aussie

Last executive Lunch

Presents;Shopping

Last day @ work

Elyse;f3nG;Sher

HubbyandI;4thMonth and going

Compliments from Hubby;

Tried

2008-08-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

Blogger obviously hated me, it doesnt allow me to post my 3 million pics. Nevermind, I have good patience.

First day, where I don't have to rush for the train, rush for 8.30am; I woke up at 9.30am.

(=

Was waiting for Hubby to wake up to come over for lunch, dumb me got my keys and wallet locked in the room. Napped while he head off for his vainy stuff. Came over at 4 odds and head over his place. So since my books was locked in the room, I was practically slacking around. I repeat, I did not do it on purpose.

(=

Played with the nieces, mq's soooooooo adorable, mx's sooo fierce and sz's too quiet. Energy level is almost on par with ENEN. Left at 1opm, cause He's having his drinking session again and I had school at 8.30am tml. Dammit.

11.55pm, I need bed. Gonna dream of my lovely hubby whom is going to fetch me from sch to play with the nieces again, and damn, to study.

OKAYS, off to call Hubby alreadyyy.

P/S: try praying for goodwill from blogger in allowing me to post those pics.
Pp/S: Happy 4th month, darlingg

那时我很多话哽在喉咙

2008-08-04T12:13:00.001+08:00

原谅我

作词: 阿沁、陈天佑、吴易纬作曲: 阿沁

演唱：萧敬腾

请不要分了以後还记得亲吻过的承诺

你的永久已不属於我

默默低头那时我很多话哽在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐或许我爱太多想太多

我能感受他比我适合

爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟

不爱你是藉口好让你离开我

请原谅我好想自私将你占有

你的寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後还记得亲吻过的承诺

你的永久已不属於我

默默低头那时我很多话哽在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐或许我爱太多想太多

我能感受他比我适合

爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟

不爱你是藉口好让你离开我

请原谅我好想自私将你占有

你的寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过

亲吻过你的脆弱

其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错

别让时间逗留我怕说不出口

原谅我没有解释太多心痛

别无所求彻底忘了我

爱原来要舍得

我爱过我才懂

Last of July

2008-07-31T12:40:00.001+08:00

Movie marathon with my 摇摇公主 this noon and evening; because neither of us wanna give in to each other thus, having to watch 2 movies at one go. Sometimes, I reckon we are very mad people.

Soon to see my 摇摇公主 thou I had lunch with him yesterday, supper-ing on the very same night, and the previous night dinnering and the previous previous .. Anw, Dumboo has got a new friend!

Also, tomorrow's my last day. Look forward, very look forward. It means more afternoon naps, more slacking, more parties and more-s. Back now, I'm seriously Money-not-enuff. Can't believe I need to scrimp on everything, back to poor student life.

12.30pm, time to ciao and have a veryyyy heavy lunch later at my 摇摇公主's place.

Food for tot; thou I very much can't figure out some characters but still understandable.
嫁給這個男人五年了，我不知道我是否還愛他，記得剛新婚的時候，早晨時必定會在他懷抱中醒來，我總是紅著臉不敢說一聲早，怕嘴裡的口氣弄皺了他的眉，漱口杯與牙刷堅持要和他用同款不同色，擺在一起看才有夫妻的感覺。我會幫他打點上班的衣物，什麼襯衫配什麼領帶，經過我的審美才准他穿上身。起了床到餐桌上，為了他的健康，我每天變換不同花樣的早餐，晴朗的天可能是培根蛋加上烤土司，有些下雨的話，或許來點小米粥搭醬瓜鹹蛋，要是陰天，不如就吃些外頭的燒餅油條和豆漿，招式用到我變不出新把戲，可是我樂此不疲。除了當一個賢慧的妻子，我亦毫不掩飾對他的熱情，「我愛你」是每天恭送他出門上班一定說的話，然後附加一個親密的吻，即使他大多時候只是淺淺一笑，也足夠我高興個老半天。
但是，五年過去了。
我相信還不到癢的時候，可是到底是什麼改變了我和他的互動呢？早晨起床，他的位置往往已空蕩，只能由皺褶的床單證實他確實存在過，即使他偶爾睡過了頭或者小賴一下床，也絕對是急急忙忙由床上跳起來，匆忙的梳洗著衣。我已經快忘了被他擁抱迎接朝陽的感覺，盥洗室裡的漱口杯，在幾年前被打破後，再也找不到一模一樣的，而另一個也因為掉到馬桶裡，所以也換了新的。五年內，牙刷已換了不知幾支，甚至有時我們睡迷糊了，還會用上同一支，什麼口氣的問題都不需要掩飾了，是否一樣顏色，一樣款式，他說這些根本不重要。因此，洗手台上Hello Kitty和小叮噹圖樣，漱口杯左右對峙，小叮噹的杯裡插著一支綠色牙刷，是我的，Hello Kitty則是空的，因為他前一陣子已改用電動牙刷，擺在架子上。分屬兩個不同故事的漱口杯，以及位於兩個不同位置的牙刷，彷彿在嘲諷我們的夫妻關係，漸行漸遠。因為他出門的時間早，打點他的衣著已經不再是我的事，他自己會搞定。早餐呢？很久沒有一起吃了，我同樣不必費盡心思去想菜單、查食譜，反正沒人賞光，更不用說「我愛你」這句話，還有熱情的早安吻，他無福消受，而且現在說起來也有些矯情了。

仔細想想，五年來，他沒有說過一次「我愛你」，一次也沒有。
我和他相聚的時間，嚴格上來說是從晚上七點開始，也就是他下班回來之後，如果他加班的話，那時間可能要延到十點、十一點。剛結婚的時候，我為了他去學烹飪，「要抓住男人的心，先抓住他的胃」，我深信這個鐵律。所以，一些餐館名菜常出現在我們餐桌上，宮保雞丁、五更腸旺、蔥油雞、東坡肉……等。見他吃得高興，我也開懷，雖然不全是我愛吃的，但是他愛吃就好。飯後，我們會依偎在沙發上看電視，我陪他看新聞，聽他評論國政、批判社情，他陪我看八點檔，聽我調侃劇情、大哭大笑。所以我知道行政院長、立法院長是什麼人，他也知道當紅的李世民是誰演的。我沒有料到的是，五年的時間可以改變這一切，烹飪班我可以說是半途而廢，不知道從哪天起，他開始干涉我做菜的方法，宮保雞丁他不喜歡太多辣椒，五更腸旺他開始抵制，蔥油雞叫我別淋油，連滷東坡肉要放多少醬油，他都有話說。我做的菜漸漸變得簡單，烹飪班也不想去了，有時候一盤炒青菜、貢丸湯和皮蛋豆腐就打發掉他，他反而沒什麼意見。我想，我抓不住他的胃。隨著他加班次數的增加，我們甚少在一起看電視了，除了現任總統是陳水扁，我對於國家大事可說一無所知，而他，問都不用問，台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰他絕對不可能知道。夫妻之間開始言不及義，他對我說的話，大多都是「不用等我」、「早點睡」，我跟他說的話，也幾乎是「你回來了」、「菜在電鍋熱著」。我們沒有相同的話題，沒有相同的興趣，除了「夫妻」名義上的聯繫，我們的交流空泛的可憐，比普通朋友還不如。
多可笑的夫妻關係，不是嗎？
婚前，我們曾描繪著未來的願景，他說要生兩個孩子，先男後女，哥哥可以保護妹妹，我卻認為應該先享受一段兩人生活，生孩子的時情倒不急於一時，只是我不想壞了他的興致，並沒有說出口。婚後一陣子，他很積極的和我「創造宇宙繼起之生命」，他想要孩子，從他不戴保險套的行為可以看得出來，可是我還不想要，又怕他不高興，於是我背著他吃避孕藥。記得那時，他還興沖沖的帶我到醫院探視一名女性朋友，她剛生完一個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，神色萎糜的躺在病床上。我忘不了他隔著一塊玻璃看新生娃娃時，眼中綻放的神采，可是我更忘不了，那位女性朋友用著虛弱的語氣告訴我，她整整痛了一天一夜，才求醫生由自然產改為剖腹產，我更不敢生小孩了。五年後的今天，他似乎已經放棄生小孩這回事，畢竟只有他一頭熱是沒用的。可是，待在他上班之後空洞的房子裡，我突然覺得生個孩子也不錯，至少屋子裡會熱鬧點，我的寂寞，也會少一點。他早就在數年前就開始用保險套了，我不清楚是什麼讓他改變心意，不過這也鬆了我一口氣，我對避孕藥似乎過敏，不論換什麼牌子最後都落得一個水腫的下場。我猜他六百多度的近視加閃光，應該看不出我水腫前和水腫後有什不一樣，重點是他的保險套解決了我一個大麻煩，同時又帶來另一個新煩惱。我現在想要一個孩子了，他卻似乎不想，我不知怎麼跟他開口，更別提他頻繁的加班，晚上常累得倒頭就睡，如果我再開這個口，似乎變相增加他的壓力。兩個人之間，已經夠低潮了，不需要再增加一個會引起衝突的話題。在我們戀愛的時候，他很喜歡帶我到淡水，坐在河堤旁看落日，沿著碼頭走一遭，可以吃到不同口味的各式小吃，淡水的海產頗富盛名，他似乎是識途老馬，總知道哪家是最道地的。有時候，他帶著我坐渡輪到對岸的八里，那裡熱鬧的只有一條路，賣的全是孔雀蛤，兩個人可以吃掉一大盤，還覺得意猶未盡。他也會和我騎雙人腳踏車沿著淡水老街騎到淡海，再由淡海騎回來，沿路的風景不算十分迷人，但有種質樸的味道，兼之海風鹹鹹的打在臉上，我很享受這種氣氛。當然，坐在腳踏車後座的我三天打漁兩天曬網，心情好的時候才踩兩下，他明知我偷懶，還是賣力的踩，我很懷念，真的即使過了五年，那段回憶仍然歷歷在目。婚後到淡水的次數，除了新婚那一陣子，幾乎屈指可數，近兩、三年更是一次都沒去過。每到假日，他不到中午不會起床，我見他這麼疲倦，當然也不會煩他帶我到處走走。假日照理說，我和他應該可以有些交集可是他累，我只能自己找事做，和在上班工作的朋友出門逛逛街，聊聊是非，也順便埋怨一下他。至於在家睡覺的他，午、晚飯，自己解決吧！他不知道，在前幾個月，我耐不住無聊，自個兒坐捷運到了淡水。果然，太久沒有去了，那裡已經變成一個我完全不認識的地方，河堤旁的小吃攤不見了，全部集中在捷運站附近，過去我和他看夕陽的地方整修成一條長堤，僅供散步，路面變得乾淨整潔固然是好，但是收藏著我和他美好記憶的地方，消失了。沒有他的帶路，我找不到道地的海產店，找不到好吃的小吃，自己一個人也騎不了雙人單車，但我驚訝的發現，淡水多了一個漁人碼頭，可以坐公車過去。漁人碼頭，他的腳步沒有踏上過，我先了他一步，這是沒有他，只有我的經驗。到了漁人碼頭邊，風景美復美矣，卻有種人工雕砌的做作，我以為花了幾百元搭乘藍色公路可以到對岸八里，就像渡輪一般，但那失了古風的遊艇卻繞了一大圈後又開回原點。除了顛簸的船身搖得我頭暈目眩，我記不起來什麼美麗的風景，連孔雀蛤也沒撈到一粒，淡水變了，我和他的回憶，也變了。某個早上，我特地比他早起，煮了頓睽違已久的豐盛早餐給他。
然後，沒有第三者，沒有爭吵。我遞出了離婚協議書。
那是我第一次看到他那麼震驚的表情，如果那天是愚人節，我想我成功了。可是，我不會開那般惡劣的玩笑，他知道我是認真的，他沒有像一般男人一樣，暴跳如雷，開始數落女方的罪狀，也沒有哭哭啼啼，跪下哀求我留下，他只是極力冷靜自己的心緒，默不吭聲的接下協議書，開門，上班，一如往常。他或許也察覺我們的夫妻關係到了一個瓶頸，也打算仔細考慮離婚的可行性，他近幾年的疏離，我沒有流下一滴眼淚，可是他這天的冷漠，幾乎傾盡我五年的淚水。我有些後悔，這後悔逐漸蔓延，以心臟為一個起點，通傳至我的頭頂及腳趾。
但後悔又如何呢？
不快刀斬亂麻，也只是拖著一個平淡如水的日子，兩個人乾耗。我不知道自己對他的愛剩多少，更不清楚他對我的愛剩多少。嫁給他之前，我就知道他沈默寡言，嫁給他之後，自以為能改變他的我，並沒有改變他多少。我的愛，還不足以改變他，他的愛，亦不足以為我改變，這大概是關鍵所在。柴米油鹽醬醋茶會摧毀愛情的甜蜜，我嚐到了，但這卻是用五年換來的教訓。趁現在，沒有孩子，沒有牽絆，我也不貪圖他什麼，該是離婚最好的時機吧！抖著手在離婚協議書上簽下名的我，到之後他出去幾個小時了，我仍然在發抖，這是一種未知的惶恐，我等他給我一個結果。他冷淡了我五年後，又凌遲了我七天。從離婚協議書交到他手上之後，整整一個星期，他不與我說一句話，也睡了七天的沙發，每天仍然照常上下班，除了更加冷淡，我感覺不到他的喜怒哀樂。那張協議書，就算扔到垃圾筒裡，還會有觸動垃圾袋的聲音，可是他，一點聲音也沒有，我懷疑他根本不當一回事，一段時間不理會我，只是在看我會不會自己忘了離婚這回事。我受不了了，他到底要怎麼做呢？連離婚，也要離得這麼漠然嗎？
然而，七天之後的他，結結實實嚇了我一跳，一早，我聽到他在客廳起床的聲音，隔著門板聽不真切，我卻一直等不到他出去上班的關門聲。一陣乒乒乓乓的金屬撞擊，取代了他一向安安靜靜的作息，我終於按捺不住起身察看，卻在開門後，聞到了一陣食物的香氣。「起床了嗎？吃點蛋捲。」他笑著，如新婚時我吻他之後那般淺笑。我心裡狠狠跳了一下，原以為古井不波的情緒，因他久違的體貼，而起了絲絲漣漪。他還是那麼輕易的，可以撩動我的心，我不清楚他怎麼可以混到九點、十點還不去上班，他接收到我的疑惑，也只是淡然一笑，身上簡單的服裝一點兒上班的氣息都沒有。可能他，也有工作疲乏吧！也可能他要宣判了，關於那張離婚協議書，看他神色自若的樣子，我默默吃著早餐，幻想著等一下他會說的話。他會不會乾脆的就離婚了呢？還是在我面前撕了協議書呢？不可否認的，我的心，傾向後者。「我升上經理了。」他的第一句話，出乎我意料，下一句話，卻馬上進入重點，轟得我措手不及，「工作上的事告一段落，現在要好好處理家裡的事。」工作是排在家庭之前嗎？我苦笑。「工作安頓好，我才能給妳安定的家。」他像在解釋我的疑惑。「所以，告訴我為什麼要離婚呢？」他終於問了，臉色變得嚴肅。他從來沒有用過這種質疑的口氣與我說話，望著他難得的厲色，我竟一句話也說不出來。「妳覺得我冷淡妳了嗎？」轉眼，他的態度忽而又變得自嘲，弄得我丈二金剛，「我就知道妳一個人在家老是胡思亂想。」我和他長談了一整天，數個小時的談話，有五分之四的時間我是在哭的，因為我覺得自己犯了一個滔天大錯，可是有些事，沒有那張離婚協議書，我永遠不會知道。他說，五年來，他確實每天都是抱著我醒來，只是後來他工作忙，起床時間變早，而我仍沈睡著，不知道罷了，有時他還會親親我的臉，看著我貪懶的睡顏，他不忍心叫醒我。而擺在盥洗室的漱口杯，他根本搞不清楚小叮噹是他的或Hello Kitty才是他的，他以為粉紅色是女孩子的頻色，所以他一直用著小叮噹的嗽口杯。原來，我們一直在無形間，做著親密的唇齒交流，可憐了Hello Kitty，擺在那兒沒人用，成了個裝飾品。早餐，他吃的都是7-11，他承認很想念我做的早餐，可是他不好意思要我每天做給他，他知道我會擠盡腦汁變花樣，他捨不得看我太累。「我娶妳，是希望妳享福，不是要妳來當女傭的。」從他這句話開始，我便止不住眼淚。提到他的衣著，他更是笑我的傻，他看得出來我會為他添新衣服，按顏色花樣在櫃裡整整齊齊的分類擺放，而新婚時期我常幫他搭配，久了他也知道我的喜好，什麼領帶配什麼衣服，他是為我而穿。至於熱情的早安吻，每天他早在我熟睡間給我了，我卻兀自鑽牛角尖，認為他不需要我的吻。「你為什麼從不說你愛我呢？」我噙著淚水問他。「我以為妳知道，否則我們為什麼結婚呢？」他理所當然回答。是啊！我知道，我一直都知道，不然我不會嫁給他的，可是既然知道，我又何必強求他說出來呢？女人都是需要一些愛語滋潤的，我想這就是理由，看著我控訴的眼光，我想他也知道理由了。「妳做的大菜，很好吃可是那些菜費工夫，也不全是妳喜歡的，所以我寧可妳做些簡單的菜，最好是妳也喜歡吃。」他一句一句的解釋，又讓我掉了一缸淚水，「妳不喜歡吃辣，因此我要妳少放辣椒，妳不吃內臟，那我也不吃，妳怕胖，所以料理時我希望油加少一點，醬油鹽份高，吃多腎臟負擔大，為了妳我健康著想，調味即可，不必加太多。」只要是我煮的，他都喜歡，想想每次準備食物給他，他沒有一次不是吃光的，到底為什麼我會覺得抓不住他的胃呢？所以，我也抓住了他的心嗎？另一件令我驚訝的事，他真的知道台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰，即使猜得不完全正確。「是劉文聰嗎？還是那個李正賢呢？晚上在公司加班，同事都會開電視來看，所以我多少也知道一點。」他撫去我臉上淚痕，笑問：「妳也在看嗎？」「嗯。」我又想哭了，我真是小覷了那個節目的收視率。「當上經理之後會比較少加班，那我們就一起看。」他說得輕鬆，我卻鼻頭一陣酸楚。我在意的，其實不是看什麼節目，管他行政院長、立法院長是誰，沒有他在身邊，看什麼都索然無味。我發現，只要願意，兩個人什麼事都可以談，連我跟他解釋台灣霹靂火的劇情，一路聊到整容話題，他也聽得津津有味。
是我，是我封閉了自己，以為他不願意聽我說話、不願意對我說話。
他心疼我一個人在家裡，聊公司裡的事怕悶壞我，又見我一副不想搭理他的樣子，他每天只能摸摸一鼻子的灰。無論他跟我說什麼，我都是愛聽的，可是我現在才讓他知道，夫妻兩浪費了幾年的時間在這種誤解之間打轉，他活該，我也活該。「我很少看新聞，都不知道國家最近發生了什麼事。」我這句話出口得有些抱怨。「好，我以後每天當妳的新聞台。」他溫柔的笑了。聊到生孩子的事，他先是一陣默然。「我想生一個孩子。」這時候，我有勇氣說出口了。「我以為妳不想，剛結婚那一陣子，妳不是一直吃避孕藥嗎？」難得聽到他有些怪罪的語氣。進一步了解之後，我才發現，他一直知道我在吃藥，或許是我哪次把藥隨便擱在化粧台上，被他看到了，他徹底了解我不想要孩子。而他也知道，我吃完藥隔天會有水腫的現象，身子骨纖細的我，一雙腳腫得跟象腿一樣，也只有我這種人的鴕鳥心態，才會認為他不會發現。後來我養成習慣將藥好好放在抽屜中，他以為我不再吃，怕身子水腫難受，所以他戴起保險套，說來說去，還是為了我。「妳又水腫了嗎？一直哭個不停，是想把身體裡的水逼出來嗎？」他居然敢揶揄我，免不了得到我飽以老拳。他還是想要孩子的，聽完我說想生孩子，他眼下興奮的光芒大大的告訴我這一點。只不過，那抹光芒在閃爍之後隨即斂去，他又正襟危坐的問了我一個問題。「妳真的想生嗎？」「想啊！我一個人在家好無聊。」「只是因為無聊嗎？如果一個人在家無聊，妳想出去學東西、去工作、和朋友去逛街，我不會阻撓妳。」「你不是也想嗎？」我生氣了，縱然淚眼婆娑沒什麼說服力。他開始說起那個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，原來那名女性朋友的經驗不僅嚇到我，也嚇到他了。他不希望我生孩子還要受極大的痛苦，什麼剖腹產、自然產，他一點概念也沒有，只知道一定會很痛，他明白我怕痛，所以他捨棄了生孩子的想法。「我不管，我要生。」明瞭了他的想法後，我更希望替他生一個孩子，身體裡流著我和他血液的孩子。「那就生吧！」他悄悄的在我耳邊說了一句令我臉紅的話。
「你這麼有精力，不是上班很累嗎？」我狐疑他話裡的真實性。經他解釋，我才恍然大悟，就算工作累，他偶爾也有慾望，有時晚上摟著我，又看我睡得香甜，這種看得到吃不到的痛苦，他只能鬱鬱的悶在自己心裡，面對他的心意，我，真的無言了。在我像兩顆水蜜桃的雙眼略為消腫後，他催我換衣服，帶我出門。已經好久沒和他一起出遊了，在兩人間的冷淡破冰後，坐在他身邊竟也給我當初戀愛的感覺。我凝望著他專心駕駛的側臉，將他的動作姿態深深刻在心裡，因為我差點忘了，我和他之間還橫著一個問題，那張離婚協議書。我要一輩子記住他的模樣，如果他最後仍是簽了名，可是，他應該不會簽吧！否則，他何必和我討論生孩子的事。「到了。」他停車，我也隨之下車。海風迎面吹來，是淡水。他也記得這個地方，這個我們記憶珍藏的地方。「我一直想帶妳來，可是妳假日都和朋友出門，我只好蒙著棉被在家睡覺。」他如此說道。這是個什麼烏龍呢？我體諒他工作累，他體諒我和朋友出門，就這樣我們錯過了，一次又一次的相伴。「你以後想幹什麼，可以直接說。」我惱火的盯著他。「妳也是。」他正經八百的回視我，言下之意是要我別五十步笑百步。
說來也好笑，我們一直認為自己是在為對方著想，以自己的方式去體貼對方，這種自以為是卻導致了無數個陰錯陽差，一直到我開始懷疑自己不愛他，他也不愛我了，才驚覺這份愛並不是消逝，而是溶入了生活之中，自然的讓人忘了它的存在。愛情的表現，可以是黏膩、親熱、奉獻、祝福，甚至是退讓，每個人的方式不同，會導致的結果各異。我的方式是盲目的付出，他的方式是全然的關懷，乍看之下兩個人都沒錯，可是無論什麼方式，中間少了一種叫「溝通」的元素，就容易導致裂痕。我們的婚姻，就是建築在這種缺乏溝通的空中樓閣之上，嫁給這個男人五年了，我以為我漸漸的不愛他，但只是一番簡單的剖白心意，我對他所有的愛再度復活，甚而轉濃。女人會因男人長久的冷落而對愛情失望，也可以因男人一句話又對愛情充滿希望，我不想和他離婚，一點兒也不想，當初硬著頭皮簽下名，或許只是賭氣，只是要他正眼看看我。可是 ……
「那、那張離婚協議書……。」我要收回來。「在公司裡。」他好整以暇，「公司的碎紙機裡。」這個意思是… …？「妳想離婚，等我成為亡夫時再說吧！」我估量不出他說這句話，是不是在開玩笑，不過他又騙到我的淚水。他真的很愛我，即使他沒有說過，我想如果我堅持離婚，他會放我走的，他捨不得見我難過，就像他見我掉淚又趕快摟住我一樣。倘若，是他想離婚呢？恕我自私，我是堅決不會放的，除非等我變成亡妻，同樣因為他捨不得見我難過，我自信可以留住他。「淡水整個都變了，我都快不認識了。」哄完了我，他連忙帶開話題。
「我來過，我知道有什麼景點。」「那這次就要靠妳帶路囉！」是啊！我們可以開創新的回憶，只要有我也有他，什麼時間地點都不成問題。結婚五年，我又發現了一次愛情。

It always seemed that I was sorry for the things that I did,
But never did a thing about it 'til I let you in.
It's kinda funny about the time that I was falling apart.
You came and put me back together, now.

'Cause what I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.

I still remember all the stupid things that I've said and done,
But still, you stuck around with me when all your friends said, "Run!"
Givin' me a name, I found myself inside all the flames.
Becoming everything for you again.

What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.

Don't tell me you saw it all along.
God help me, I never knew it alone.
Guess I was wrong.

What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.

And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
You've taken me,
And shaped me to become what you want me to be.

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

2008-07-28T16:29:00.002+08:00

Sun;
Slept practically the whole day, ENEN made me mad by pasting my nail sticks all over her hand. Freaking expensive stuff and she treated it like a 3for1buck sticker. Made me uberly mad and I hadnt talk to her. She went on screaming at everyone saying "the sticker very expensive why you all go and paste it on your hand!" Hands down to her cum potential oscar award winner, sometimes I had no idea how to get mad at her for one sec.

So I had to put her to nap to quiet down the house;

ME: Sleep!
ENEN: *Kicks in the air*
ME: I tell Daddy you kicked me!
ENEN: I tell Daddy you scold me!
ME: Yahs .. I tell Daddy you took my stuff and paste it all over. Later I write down and tell him.
ENEN: *Quiets … Sleep*

To think I had to use this tactic to tame her down. Lucky she hadnt need to stay over.
(=

BF has his game in the afternoon and dinner with his family, then back home to finish up his report. So being a uberly uberly nice GF, when BF called and complained how much work has been undone and the uprising stress level; I, grabbed my mobile and stuff, cabbed down just to deliver him with supper. I was so brave, cause it's 11.30pm and I had to walk a long dark path to reach BF's place. BAHS!

眼泪都笑了

比想象中更痛你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你
深深的

HELLO MY DEAR EARTHLINGS.

2008-07-25T16:01:00.000+08:00

It's the favourite day of the week, thou I still can't believe my throat still hurts mad and I had accidentically "knocked" on my gums while brushing.

Last last day (23Jul), met VV for last minute shopping for cakeS/nicer dresses/prettier shoes but I took too long to decide on the watch. Freaking 270 for a Titus watch, I have never ever bought watches before (I'm very blessed with gifts, hAa) but I thought with the same amount of money, it could well be spent on DKNY instead. But thoughts appreciated. Afterwhich, it made me uberly uberly late for VV's. I can't believe not a single clothing was worth my eyes and all I've got for the day was cakes, cakes and cakes (How many cakes does one birthday needs.DUHS.) excepts VV gotten herself a bag. HANDS DOWN, I was least excepting her to get anything before me, so not right. KAKA- Left her and I got home at 1o odds 11 while I tried texting Hubby on his current whereabouts (Drinks again!), at the same time trying veryyy hard to get him to be home earlier (I have to restort in lying to tell him something important when he told me he'll only get home latest by 12mn, >.<) I don't know how or why this idiot knew I was heading to his place at then (I reckoned nervous cat spills everything out!) So while I was attempting to get there earlier than him going back, cabbed down, reached and dialled him while I was walking in, this idiot just strolled out from his gate with that laughing-like-idiot face of his. Very funny, He reached home at 11.15pm. Trolley.

Yester-day (24Jul), coincidentally; Hubby's 24th. Can't believe I need to get up for sch early while He continues sleeping till 1pm. Cabbed home after, took ANOTHER cake to Hubby's place. Reached and as usual, Hubby's niece ran off upon seeing me ( … )= … ), but AHA!; She said Bye Bye to me for the very first time. Caught X-files @ PS (Late as usual, but the movie was 15 mins later) head off to Marina.Sq to get my shoes (again, TeeHee!), then we tried veryyy hard to settle for a dining place. Waraku pasta did not pleasure us much so Hubby suggested Sushi-Tei (I'm so so so soooo in love with Sushi-Tei, in a horrendous stage!). So we head off to Paragon since we couldn’t think of any nearer places besides there (Only to know Raffles City has one, ultimate dumber). As usual, the very long wait there made us decide to try on the Japanese restaurant @ B1 Angel's suggested instead. We hadn't ordered much but only to choke a 1oo dollar bill up (Dirt expensive). Back to Hubby's place only to find everyone's sleeping, so we went on cutting the cake unaccompanied.
So, it's been three million since I hit Zouk and my ever-favourite play ground @ St.James. Next week they said and Zouk it is, since it's my last day at work and to commerate the start of freedom! But Damien has got me into a new place, he said it's a new playground for me. Haa. Anw, I'm uberly tired and my camera dies on me, so expect lesser pictures to be up; when I have time or energy to switch on the comp then.

I'm so blessed these while, I'm having Swenson for lunch with the whole team and eski bar later tonight with best best and pals.

Love is holding hands in the street.
Love is dinner for 2 in your favorite restaurant.
Love is cuddling on a sofa.
Love is talking about having children
Love is going to bed early.
Love is a romantic drive.
Love is losing your appetite.
Love is sweet nothing in the ear.
TV has no place in love.
Love is 1 drink and 2 straws.

我们心已了解这出戏不该再见

如果我真心爱你该有快乐结局

- 你没想像中爱我 -

你小心翼翼牵我手

其实是担忧藏不住我

自尊也投降活在她之下

我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她

那又是什么让你害怕

我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下

我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候

原来你没想像中那么爱我

我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受

你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她

挥霍我的爱从不放心上

我有一丝无奈也有一些明白

该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候

原来你没想像中那么爱我

我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么

不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

谁说我不在意空等候

原来你从来都没深刻爱我

我才懂不是我不心痛

其实是心没了感受

With a thump;

2008-07-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

Silence IS the best policy, However ME has NEVER been a silent person before. Whatever discontentment or to any bu shuang-ness, just like an open book, will be shown by the expression of mine.

And me, being as stubborn as a mule, nothing gets in.

BEST BEST has barred me by not asking me to ESKI this Friday, just because I once (Still) condemn on pub appreciation. [EhEh, GBW]. VV shocked me by encouraging me to shop this evening, because she thought I might has been too stressed up by studies. I-am-so-delighted. Damien has been crapping with me these few days, he seriously thought he could cheer me up. Mer got me playing DrugLord which I'm still trying to figure out what's what. Alvin just caught SEVEN carebears during lunch, absolute maddess.

Elva's voice has been going on my player 3 million times and I have no intention of turning it off. The air-con here's blasting and I don't wanna get on with my coat. Everyone's in the office has been trying to make me laugh, but I walked away without a word. I lost my staff pass, now I found it hiding beneath my bed. I skipped breaky and lunch, now I had no feeling for food. Hello kitty has been saying no-no-no to me for the nth times. I think I need a dog.

My sentences aint linking, I must be mad and now Mental's very block. I'm going to continue writing nonsensical stuff, wait for time to strike 6pm and hope shopping-cures-depression still stands.

Food for thought

2008-07-22T09:34:00.003+08:00

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"
The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up a nd discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, "Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered,"You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? "Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

"Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One"
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away "

作回朋友

2008-07-20T22:02:00.005+08:00

And how it got inked to my heart,
Thanks for adding how I already know you were smoking and drinking when I first know you.

As pain as it is, I should have contested on it earlier.

Mer has been telling me stuff of doing the last promise you have given to your partner. Got me thinking, maybe, this is the one last thing I wanna do before I end it.

很感激這城市擁擠的交通　　

讓你我還能多相處幾分鐘　　

人潮中怕失散所以輕輕拉你的手　　

一刻不放鬆不放鬆　　

忍不住想要愛你的衝動　　

不確定你屬於我會有點寂寞　　

你給的幸福在我心中自由走動　　

撫平我美一個傷口　　

忍不住想要吻你的衝動　　

不確定我的執著能讓你感動　　

我只相信自己感受不怕失落　　

關於你的一切我想要比誰都懂　　

我的心是被你設定的鬧鐘　　

提醒我想你的時間不夠用　　

為什麼平淡的事情現在突然生動　　

是你改變我你改變我　　

你是情人還是朋友　　

還沒勇氣想得太多　　

你的世界如此遼闊　　

我會在哪個角落

You cut me open and I keep bleeding.

Hate that I Love You ... So much.

2008-07-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

Tonight, meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee gonna finished up the last dose of the antibiotics. Tadah, I don have to be reminded about how awful it taste. Anw, I can't believe it's just tuesdays and Im gonna die hunger of this coming Friday. We're going to pop the champagne, eat all we want and mind café all the way. Where Sat I'm gonna turn in to my notes after my Ikea shipping with Mer, Im not going to fail maths againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Like pls?

ex-Boss just bought us muffins again! (Oreo muffins' a die for!) Im going to die of fatty acids if this goes on (lucky I tendered!). I'm going to wait for Aug 1st and I'll be all freed, I can walk round my room, to taking the as-long-as-I-want afternoon naps, disturb best best at her work place and lunch-ing with all the working peeps. Whats more, I can roam around Raffles; they have beautiful clothes, nice weather (Uberly nice shinning sun!), nice working adults (Shit, miss that place!). Oh ya, J L, then I can finally get to catch up with u alrdy!

So I'll have 4 days before sch starts, 2 months to be a FT slacker … GOD, sch's nice, being student IS nice. I need, I need a PT job cause I don't believe Im gonna get used to the already - appalling lifestyle I'm having now. And AH -HA!; if you people starts thinking I've already spent all my bonuses away, u are so terribly wrong. I know Winnie's head off the line, followed by VV and I know Darl gonna nag me again. Angel doesn't care since she's label freak, Agnes' BO CHAP as long as I don't spent it on others. TSK TSK TSK, they almost forgot I'm a finance student. So, no more gucci for me … Cos I tot I might have gotten something more useful instead. Bestx2 knows it, and she must keep this for me.

=D

I know last Yami yoghurt was an ancient, so do pray with me as well that Mr Blogger has an uberly nice mood to allow me to successfully upload the tonnes of photos tonight, in fact, I'm halfway thru' before it dead me off.

I wan clubbingggggggg and KTV-ingggggg. Damn, where are the khaki-s.

Ooo.CIAOS.

I need to get immune.
Immune to nonsense, immune to rumours and to many many many things.
Something tells me I need to be stabbed, stabbed with courage.

现在她在你的身边就对她好一点
不要再让你们的爱败给了时间

我应该就走开就算感情还在

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile?

You wont let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

But I hate...
You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at you
For too long thats wrong

But I hate...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that i adore you

And i hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go
And I hate that I love you so

You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I..love you beyond the reason why
And it just aint right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just cant let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

As much i love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

And I hate that i love you soooo
And I hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2008-07-07T18:06:00.002+08:00

獅子座的男生對於女朋友其實潛意識裡什麼都要管，

可是基於面子問題他會裝大方或者眼不見為淨，獅子男有個很矛盾的心態，

他又要女朋友很吸引人，可是又要女朋友是乖的，不會勾引到別人，

也因此當他越愛對方時他就希望對方穿的越保守，

獅子男其實心裡是非常沒有安全感的。

LOL! I tell u I tell u!; I almost burst my laughing vein once I read this. 什麼都要管 lah! This one super duper duperrrly true! 又要女朋友很吸引人，可是又要女朋友是乖的，不會勾引到別人. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. DarLingg, high maintenance YET I must wear winter clothes hor?

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HARD LAH!
LOL!!

2008-07-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

Like finally ...

DINNER-ING @ ICHIBAN.

VERY NICE PEPSI-LIGHT.

DESSERTS @ GELARE, WITH VV

SUSHI-TEI WITH HUBBY

IKEA WITH VV AND SHOPPING!

ULTIMATE PUNISHMENT, ORANGE JUICE PLUS BEANCURD - HUBBY AND ME.

>.<

LATE NIGHT SUPPER-ING ROUND THE ISLAND

ZARA SHOPPING WITH HUBBY.

ENEN ENJOYING ...

GATHERING AT JURONG POINT, FOLLOWED BY KTV SESSION.GNO!

LUNCH-ING ...

DINNER-ING @ BAKERZIN

DUMBO LOVESSSS HELLO KITTY AS WELL.

FINAL PACKING UP ..

KTV AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

US, BACK TOGETHER!

<3>

HOUSE PACKING PART 2

KTV AGAIN AND AGAINNNNNNNNNNN

FISH AND CO, DINNER-ING UPON DARL'S RETURN.

3RD MONTH DINNER-ING @ WARAKU

DINNER-ING WITH MER, WITH HIS ALMOST-TO-ROT HAND.

AND HUBBY'S SINGING ...............

IM SO TIRED.

SODA ANYONE?

TEEHEE.

Backdated -

2008-07-03T09:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS!
I presumed no one else likes to hear my stories on my runaway from this blog-o-sphere … So details kept, highlights focus-ed.
Last week was tormentating with a wayyy too tight schedule to me (OH BTW, 30th which marks BONUS DAY!), BonDarl's back (Now gone); thou I've missed the Fri and Sat's gathering but the week went on like a thrill. I can't even remembered like which days I've met with whosoever, but I remembered the hundreds odd of photos taken during dinners, ktv-ing, G-N-O blah blah blah.

House moving on sat, which waved another migraine attack. So aching I had to sleep thru' the noon only having to wake up in the evening, trying hard to unpack where I dumped the whole lot of I-don't-know-how-many-zillion-pieces of clothing in the wardrobe and SHASH, off it must be closed. I know self denial's bad, I know one night I'll have the face the musik and hang them up nicely. Still, I went off to bang on some mini girls' session @ TPY then for movie-session with BF but only to find ourselves caught in those uberly late nights movie slots, mirgraine hits again, popped those pills BF bought and head back home for sleep!

Sunday was kept low with mega sleeping sessions, caught Nardia while waiting for BF to finish his family's dinner, picked me up, slacked awhile more and decided for some supper-shopping round the island. Supposed to catch The Apprentice but supper hopping got a lil wayy too off-handed which lasted an hour long. Got a lil way too much food and wasted equally much while having serious burning sensation in my throat now. TV-ed till 5 odds and got k.o, right 1.5 hours later, hit back to the workplace.

The rest was recent where I had got mc-ed tuesday but still head off to meet BF for dinnering and the supposed suppering session got called off since BF had to head off to help the needy friend. BF's nieces finally called me JIE JIE, like after 3 million years and after I-don-know-what-he-said-to-his niece stuff. Much appreciate it if BF hadnt asked them to add Monster behind. Boo.

And if you asked for yestderday, BF had his lessons in noon and his game on evening, so it's shopping spree with BEST BEST and field-searching for labels. Now I'm caught in dilemma with the Gucci-s and the forthcoming holidays, if so. BF got sooooo irritated by me, he just shoo me off by saying BUY LAH BUY LAH. Chomp Chomp last night, k.o at 2am.

Today, Im going to rush every report out and have a nice movie and dinner with BF.

BTW; - Happy 3rd Month-niversay Darlingg
& Sorry people, this double 3 gonna kept low with simple dinner, simple movie and a veryy simple cake. I've got something BIG to work on. WOO-

CIAOS!

Having you ...

2008-06-18T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hubby bought YAMI for me; thou it got melted when I got it from him; thou I have to continue working till 9 odds; thou I can't grabbed him up and make him sit beside me while I work ... But still 1oo% sincerity felt deep down.

I know I can't say enough to present my appreciation out. I know the list of stuff Hubby did gonna run longg, simple thing like making sure not a single drop of rain fall upons me, to my special delivery of late night suppers each time I whine upon on and to the without-fail good morning / night message...

Okays, I know when I said this, I'm missing this idiot tonnes loads. I'm going to run over and hug him before I head off to bed.

P/S: 3 million things happened and happening, time got too little, but Im glad you're here... <3

He doesnt even bother; why are you still saying sorry and getting all guilty over.

From the bottom of my heart;

2008-06-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

The difference between these ladies and guys stuff:
One allow for second chance, the other's no for sure.

Guys can err a million and one time, and they make sure they are forgiven. Where else for us ladies, no chances were given. We can go on pleading for forgiveness, cry all our hearts out, seriously and so sad it's one cold hard fact (Bearing in mind), guys would ~~normally~~, for sure not forgiving them.

They got past the fact that it was them whom got these girls falling on them. They got past the initial reason why this love exists. They forgot how strong love was.

All they remembered was how much effort they have put in. The many many times. But I thought they must have forgotten something because all they can ever think of this moment was all on their side, disregarding how much sacrifice was put in by the other party.

I looked at her, seeing a all-so-familiar shadow in her. She did all she could to putting down her pride, install for her was all the self blames she could find. She cried every single night, to herself, all by herself. Restorting to stuffs she had would ever do to anyone, she just wants him back. There was just so much things coming through upon seeing her. I hesitated on letting know she looks silly, she must stop, be brave and walk on proudly but, I've no rights. Pretty much so a route for girl-turn-lady.

Sometimes I wonder, does it always need detours to reach? Does it require lowering your pride, getting hurt all over? Does it always have to get scarred to definite the shape of true love.

So, if your guy start telling you time has fade the co-shared feelings; it's sad but you just have to admit He had fallen for others. Enough for "I think we're not suitable" or "I've given in wayy too much I've enough." I've been thru, but one thing I still cant yet figure out why; Why cant they just admit to falling for others instead of pushing blames.

Having Peter-Pan syndrome, I wish I never had to grow up.

On a happier note; Your truly's moving this week.

Midnight Bottle

2008-06-16T01:19:00.000+08:00

Midnight bottle take me calmly through my memories and everything will come back to me
Midnight bottle make it real what feels like make believe so I can see a little more clearly
Like every single move you make, kissing me so carefully, on the corners of my dreaming eyes
I've got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I've got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
I think of you and everything's all right if only for tonight
Got a midnight bottle drifting off into the candlelight where I can find you any old time
Midnight bottle I forgot how good it felt to be in a dream just like you had me
Cuz lately I've been stumbling feels like I'm recovering
But I think it's only for tonight

I've got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I've got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
I think of you and everything's all right if only for tonight
If only for tonight, oh if only for tonight, if only for tonight

I've got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight, a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
I think of you and everything's all right if only for tonight yeah
Midnight bottle, take the time away from where we are

Perfect Stranger.

2008-06-14T13:18:00.004+08:00

你曾经多爱我你还记得否

为什么同一张口才说爱我又说要离开我

像 ... 忘了时间的钟一分一秒的过

却不知到越走错越多

爱到最后剩什么

Split and torn

2008-06-14T01:17:00.001+08:00

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend...
I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

还有没有结果

Call Him Mine

2008-06-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

I can call him mine

It was only a matter of time
Before I got tired of your ways
I tried to make you fire,
But you were only ice
And you didn't seem to wanna change

So then I looked at someone new
And he was looking back at me too
Saw that I was hurt
Knew just what to say
Knew just how to push the pain away

You know I need stability
And you know you can't give it to me

My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

Though when I call him on the phone
I never feel butterflies
I know that I can trust
He'll always give me love
And I know mine will grow for him in time

He tells me that I'm beautiful
And I never ever heard that from you
He doesn't cause me pain
Tears falling like the rain
And though I'm still in love with you
You know I need stability

It wasn't easy letting go but I know that I had to think of the long run and say goodbye
And find someone who appreciates me even though even though.....

The sun may never rise again like it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like I'm a part of his life
He doesn't make me cry
Doesn't make me cry
He doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

For you I will.

2008-06-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

It's raining now, and I don't know why, I haven felt a bitsy of moodiness hitting me. Something's wrong, cause I just laugh silly-ing to myself.

Hour ago, I was done with Mer on getting his phone. (BTW, Viewty sucks big time.) Head back home while Hubby reminded me how heavily the rain is. Tried calling him 3 million times but darn, no answer.

So right after my shower, Mr Bf's at the bustop.

The rest was for imagination, alrights, so just imagine Mr Bf with the brolly with him and his uberly nerd specs.

Tell me, ring me, I've a very very very good BF.

You never fail to remind me with each ending day, I'll always have you to lean on.
You really did.

Not just words, but you prove it. Time and time again.

Belated ...

2008-06-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

For you I paint a thousand colours and write a thousand words ..
For you.

WELCOME BACK HOME HUBBY;

Home downdates.

2008-06-08T23:01:00.003+08:00

Mum has got this uberly biggggggggggggggggggggggg mirror up at the living room. Damn shit but I love it like mad.

When I mean big, I really do mean reaaaaaaaaal big.

CIAO

Because it's you and me

2008-06-08T21:00:00.013+08:00

It started when Weiyan's got tired .. or was it the waiting that drained him?

So he got himself all geared up and parked himself on it first.

THAT EVIL LOOK.

THE-WAITED-FOR-THREE-MILLION-YEARS LOOK.

TRYING HARD I SEE.

SEE TRYING ....

OKAYS, CUTE FACTOR ADDED.

THEN COMES THE LOVE YOU TILL DEATH EPISODE

TO SURRENDER THE CAKE OR NOT?

GOT FILMED.
o.O

LOSER RUNS

COMES BACK FOR REVENGE;

The typical ENEN's face, you-come-back-for-whats.

Weiyan's The you-go-away.

Weiyan's CAN-I-EAT-IT-NOW

GROUPIES

MISC

To appeased your eyes

So you know, it's ENEN's bday.
Being her uberly nice aunt, I had to wake up at 9am, pick up the cake at 1o.3oam and head off their place before they hit back after their cruise trip.

People, it's a sunday today. And I've no hate to the coming Monday, in fact I love it to the core! Cause Hubby's back tomorrow! and and and He just wrote and said he's coming straight to my office after touching down. >.<>.<

Cant wait for tml and sure enuff, I cant believe me not seeing Him for sucha long time.

I cant believe whats used to be so strong has fallen and crashed. You seen me in my ups and down, making me so believe true love withstand in time.

1o years was easy, in fact it was a long road. Just for another year to the great union, everything breaks hell.

Who and Who has changed it? Whose heart got swayed away?

Just who?

Tell me baby, love can withstand all. Tell me baby, there's always fairytale comes true. Tell me again, they going to make it thru and make me believe love's true.

Time causes change

2008-06-08T01:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes; I hate myself for it.
I snuggled in bed for the whole day, I don wanna wake up.

It's not good. It's not.
It's not right, coz you're here.

TGIF!

2008-06-06T15:15:00.002+08:00

今天寂寞感觉忽然又出现
I will remember this moment forever, just like what you say, I am more important than anybody in this world
May you didn't know
Maybe I wanted to be in your warmth

Okays, Im not going to whine that much cause someone has constantly reminded me its just 4 days, not 4 years. Alrights alrights, 4 days' just a blink of eye (Thou I've blinked quite a fair times this morning, Hubby's still not back).

No doubt any sooner Im going to slam Damien's on the table since he has been telling me BKK's full of pretty babes all round the corner on the streets, which is like 1ooooo% prettier and hotter than me, and they are all going to swoon over my Hubby. Sorry, but Mr BF aint interested in tranvestites.

Hubby's leaving in hours time but he has alrdy set me the 10 over rules to abide with last night. And his mail to me today kinda twinkle me a lil bit:

Yea, go ahead and party with my sisters. Like SISTERS only, no guys. DERH!
Shitz, 3 million sms-es per day has to stop. Teleco has got to make us their big customer in due course should this continues.

Anw, head back to work coz work shits never end. As if I haven got enuff work load pilling up and those unclear stuff someone have given me while Im on leave, I just gotten back the damn portfolio just because of someone's inefficiency. She messed up every piece of work I've neatly info-ed them on and threw the whole rubbish back at me. very well. I've got myself a very good coverer. At least I know what Im going to repay her back when she get back this one week later. I'm a typical librian, I'll return what you gave me. I'm fair and square. (=

She looked herself in the mirror, facing the someone whom she should be familiar with. Yet distant was all she felt to herself and thinking why had she changed. Like an old flim winds back, it just kept repeating. She just couldn't explain how things has stuffed in between them, she tried to conquer the fear she instill in her heart every night while at the same time trying to get in contact with him. It always fail. The best is yet to come but the worst has always been here.

He turned silent, keeping her at bay was for a reason. He cant explain but he needs to leave. For a reason or so, things was much complicate and he felt it was harder to breathe. He loved her, still loving her but forces between the tight up situation left him unprofound. He said she can't understand him and allow him no space for breathing.

If you ever know, 1o years was not easy.

Every night, I saw him.
Facing the same tiredness and avoidance stays haunting him. One thing she didnt know, He was as hurt.

Post exam on the lead.

2008-06-05T23:59:00.008+08:00

The night before my last paper; Hubby came over and bought me the nicest har gao (He claimed), the not-so-useful study guide and truck loads of encouragement to my final dash. Yes, very sweet.

And this was what I had to deal with, and yea, this is just one question. ONE. Fact held infront of u... econs sucks. >.<

But dumbo kills them all!

And nope, u aint seeing double. Now Hubby and I has the same phone.
<3

The look-nice-eat-and-realise-how-digusting-it-was.

Hubby's leaving tml, I know I'll get lost. I know I'll be bored. I know I'll bomb His cell at each min. Most importantly, I'll miss him alot and I aint gonna lie.

Sweet stuff for your eyes;

BTW; I had lunch with dearest xinn today. Thou it was raining like mad, I still lug my dready self and my pink brolly over to her. Wet shoes' definitely worth it.

ALRIGHTS; Needa bang the bed now since I've work tml.

Hate these emotions getting over me.
Somehow weekends got a little lost and Im heading nowhere.
I was borned in your heart and now you're taking it away.
It's just days yet it felt forever is donning me.
Whats wrong? and what has gotten over me now.

One thing I aint hiding, I miss this guy terribly much counting now.

Updates Updates; Whoosp!

2008-06-05T18:59:00.000+08:00

OKAYS, I know Wednesday's a day for girls to go crazy but what's the world's turning to? Xinn was in the club last night, so was Jass. As for me, I head off to bed right after I've done with my paper, to have waken up for SATC with Hubby. Not bad especially so when you're able to see pretty or you would say extravagant clothes that you cant even see in normal movie films, and you would able to see bags and bags of Gucci stuffed right into the boot of the car. Maybe Devil wears prada does but SATC works for me.

Anw, if Hubby were to walk out on me the way Big did, I'll do just the same as what Carrie does. No err. One thing slighty above par, Hubby do writes to me, not paper faxes of coz! >.<

Perfect Wednesday was shagged out by 1am and I can hardly understand what Hubby texted me, I was reaaaaaal tired.

So, Thursday was back here shivering with cold sweat and thinking how to empty my alrdy fully loaded intray. SUCKS. I dont understand why simple things cant be carried out properly like wasnt Im wayyyy too clear in explaining alrdy. Okays, sucks alrights. But Lunch was fine with Dear Xinn, it was nice to have a pretty face shown up after we were soooo tied up with stuff. More to come since exams blues are all gone.

Hubby's leaving tml and I swear Im going to cry him a river and Im going to be so lost this weekend with nowhere to go except for coping myself at home and pack my stuff. Quote: I need 17 years.

Alrights, Hubby's here any min so I better get going. Fret not, coz I've more than enuff time to type this space once Hubby's off to the jet.

BYE PEOPLE.

P/S: DarL, See you soon on your home-coming BBQ soon!

I can't make it go away and now I can't stand the pain;

Hippppppp Hurray!

2008-06-04T19:26:00.002+08:00

Turn the music up, yea, turn it up. Coz we're going to party like mad, in co-celebrating the done-with-it torments.

Cant believe econs was much of a breeze than maths. I'm gladddddddd.

Lemme enjoy these 2 days with Hubby before he left for his holidays without me. To make matter worst, mum's heading off to the cruise.

Kill me. But hey, before that,lemme burn my nights.

Love;

One down, another to go!

2008-06-03T16:22:00.002+08:00

Breathe people, breathe! Coz after tml's paper we're all gonna be so free we'll bang all others' door and run away!

Maths has been done and over, crying over spill milk is dumb. Im flunk to that paper which sucks to the core, which turns our toooooo differently from the past years paper.

Now the sucker econs' here to kill. I've left with one more chance, yea, one more chance to die.
I wanna nap for awhile and disturb hubby later on before I hit back to econs' notes.

Good luck, paper-ler!

HAPPY 2ND MONTH-NIVERSAY TO US;
AND HAPPY 1ST MONTH BDAY DUMBO.

P/S: Spot the difference and my caught-off-guard cum super nerdy hubby.

Love you beyond a reason why;

2008-06-02T05:05:00.004+08:00

He said His heart has no feeling;
He said He needs time to consider;
He asked Her to be patience.

Tension = She's having my baby

我为什么在颤抖
这么温暖的时候
像一只乌龟准备躲进壳里头
你的表情也变得像
冰冷冷的莲蓬头
坐在那里一动也不动
我们不知所措
我们没遇过的没想过的
该怎么说该怎么做
She's having a baby
你紧握住我双手
不想因为害怕而失去baby
我的脑袋一片空白
难道爱是压力
She's having a baby
我们应该要高兴
不能因为害怕而放弃
我抱着你我在犹豫
爱是需要些勇气
一个人也许没牵挂
两个人比较不害怕
三个人可以变一个家

你静静地看着我
露出温柔的笑容
像下过雨后出现美丽的彩虹
我的眼睛开始泛红
一种成长的感动
从今天起你就是我的老婆
我是你的老公
互相迁就互相包容
互相尊重一起生活
She's having a baby
我紧握着你双手
不想因为逃避而失去baby
我看着你我好心疼
爱就要有勇气
She's having a baby
我应该面对问题
不能因为害怕而放弃
我抱着你不再犹豫
我会一直地爱你
要把你带进教堂里
看你穿白纱裙
手牵手走上红地毯
然后我会为你把戒指戴上去
把喜悦告诉上帝
只想要你开心
Thank you Lord for everything
This gift of love has finally made me see
Now I realize you're everything in the world to me
She's having a baby
我们紧握着双手
一起面对未来的问题no problem
我看着你感到幸福
爱情给我勇气
She's having a baby
我们应该要高兴
因为这是爱情才有的baby
我抱着你不再犹豫
我要永远地爱你

你静静地看着我
露出温柔的笑容
我抱着你你抱着它
抱着我们的baby

5am right now and my 1o mins break's up, I've 3 million past papers aint done. It's useless to sleep now since I've to wake up at 8am. God, please grant me more time. Alrights, so studies do sucks at times.

看不見你的笑我怎麼睡得著

A Little somone ..

2008-06-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

你会不会变

为什么爱一个人那么危险

Everynight, She kept thinking ... Why, after so long that you start wanting back your freedom. And did She strict him on that? She just kept wondering while He returned back home at dusk retreiving back his desired freedom.

This is the freedom you wanted?
Wanting it back after so long, so 1o years long.

I KNOW MY DEAR XXINN WILL LOVE THIS ....

2008-05-30T13:39:00.001+08:00